Today I am wondering whether mother will outlive both of us. My brother is terminally ill and after a lifetime of abuse I am not very well either. I rather think she will outlive us because she has found the way to do nothing and let everyone else do it for her. This is why she is so well at 87.
She tells everyone that she is poor and ill, neither is correct. I wish that I
could just fly away. But of course you can't. I have not experienced my life without her. It seems she is too clever for me. She is always able to trap me in some way.
If there is an afterlife I hope that we will be as far away from one another as possible. This is a woman who is so selfish she is dispensing with her family one at a time. Dad's gone. My brother's very ill. That leaves me and I am not well. If we all die before her she'll go on to the next generation. This woman is truly monstrous.
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